I have a Missionary?!

There is so much to say and so little time! Hopefully I won't bore anyone with my story since this will probably be like a journal entry. But, YES, you did read correctly, I do have a missionary- that I'm writing! I told myself I never would do that, but sometimes you just can't help it! His name is Micah Love! Isn't that the cutest name ever?? Well he is one of my best friend Moryah's brother. I've actually known him for a long time and we've wanted to date for forever but I guess we just never did because we were dating other people or we just lived so far away, it would've been too hard. But this past summer at the end of June, he called me and we finally went on a date! We totally hit it off and had the best conversations ever! He really is the sweetest guy and very well-rounded too! He has an amazing testimony and he loves soccer and basketball too! He's great!
Well, back to my story, as some of you may know, I was really hesitant to date him at first because he was leaving on a mission and besides that, Terry had just broken up with me so i didn't really want to be in another relationship. But there was part of me that really wanted to be with him too. We kept going on fun dates and just being great friends. Each time, I seemed to like him more and more! Well finally I came to realize that I was only saying that I didn't like him and didn't want a relationship because I was thinking that I had been dating other boys for a while and in the past I wouldn't usually date that much, so it seemed weird for me to be having a boyfriend again. Does that make sense? (sometimes i have weird logic that makes no sense at all) Well, of course, my friends and family are all so supportive and they help me too.
So.. finally, after not seeing Micah for a few weeks(due to vacatoin and pageant stuff) I realized how much I had really grown to love him! I was talking to my mom and i told her- "I don't care anymore about trying not to be in a relationship because that's such a stupid reason to not like someone when i really do! You know what mom, I love him! and I'm going to keep dating him even though he's leaving because maybe it was meant for me to meet and date him before he left!" (It soounds like I was yelling , but i was only just talking).
So yeah, of course, my mom is supportive and was wondering why I was hesitant in the first place because he is such a great guy! I guess i just didn't want to him to think about me while he's on his mission, I just wanted him to think about the mission you know.
So we kept dating, and things just seemed to be working out perfectly!

We went four-wheeling one night and we were talking about how he was leaving and that, I won't be essentially waiting for him, but if i'm still here when he returns and we still love eachother, then of course I'll marry him! I also told him why i was hesitant dating him at first and he said he was actually a little hesitant too. I did pray about it and it felt right for me. SO I felt like it was just fine! Anyway, so I told him i didn't want him to think about me while he was gone.. He said "don't worry I wont!" and then he started laughing a little because it sounded rude but he really didn't mean it that way. He said that he'd definitely think about me, but wouldn't let it interfere with his mission and studying, and the lord's will. I was so happy when he said that! It just made me feel so much better! I keep saying that if he were a return miissionary now, then I would marry him now, so we'll see what happens in 2 years. You know, he had to wait a little bit to go out on the mission becaue of health, and then he met me after, so maybe it really was meant for me to be with him. Only the Lord knows and I have to put my trust in him! I Love the gospel!
Well, he left last Wednesday so it hasn't even been a week! It kinda really stinks, but I'm so happy and proud of him! He's amazing! (to be continued...)